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Never Enough

The nosy wife, the open relationship



I think my husband is addicted to porn. I find porn in his browser history almost every single day. He says I'm the only one he wants, but I find that hard to believe knowing he watches nonstop porn before fucking me. He also parties every time he goes on a business trip. Needless to say, I also suspect he cheats. He says he would never cheat on me because he "doesn't need to." But what does that mean? I think he is a liar. Every time I even try to bring anything up with him, it is flung back in my face because I cheated on him. He has the ultimate trump card. In his eyes, he can do no wrong because it will never be as bad as me having slept with someone else early in our relationship. Anyway, my question is mostly related to porn: Why does he watch it? I feel as though I am not enough. I am 29 and attractive. What should I do?

Wife Is Feeling Entirely Yucky

You should stop looking at your husband's browser history.

I have no way of knowing exactly what your husband means by "doesn't need to [cheat]," WIFEY, but here's the best-case scenario: You're his only sex partner, he's totally into you, but like all humans — including wife humans — he's wired to desire a little variety and some novelty. No one is "enough" for anyone, and anyone who tells you otherwise is a liar. Which is not to say that everyone cheats (because not everyone does) or that cheating is OK (because it rarely is), but cheating is common enough that forgiving an isolated infidelity (or two) should be our default setting, not immediately lawyering up and filing for divorce.

Back to the best-case scenario: Your husband wants to have sex with other people (and so do you) but he doesn't (and neither do you). Instead of cheating, WIFEY, your husband scratches that variety itch with porn. He pops into his favorite sites once or twice day, just like millions of other people, but he's not cheating on you. (Unless you define viewing porn as cheating — in which case, good luck finding a man who won't cheat on you.) I would advise you, again, to stop scouring his browser history for evidence of what you already know to be true — your husband is attracted to other people and sometimes looks at porn — and make up your mind to enjoy the effect porn has on your husband, i.e., it revs him up and stokes his desire for you.

Now here's the worst-case scenario: Your husband is cheating on you, perhaps during those business trips, and "doesn't need to [cheat]" was an insincere blandishment. But absent some other compelling evidence of cheating — incriminating text messages, mysterious credit-card charges, brand-new STIs — you're just going to have to take him at his word.

Is it your opinion that a girl can love a man but also want an open relationship? Or does wanting an open relationship mean that the girl doesn't love her man? (I'm the girl in this situation.)

Perplexed Over Lusty Yearnings

Wanting to fuck other men isn't proof that a girl (or a boy) doesn't love her man. When two people make a monogamous commitment — which should be an opt-in choice, not a default setting — they're promising not to fuck other people. But both will still wanna fuck other people. If you can't see yourself sleeping with just one man for the rest of your life — or being in a relationship with just one man at a time — then a monogamous commitment isn't for you, POLY.

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