I'm a youngish (barely under 30) woman, currently involved in a great hetero relationship: My boyfriend is caring, unlike some men I've dated before, and I see him as a life partner. The trouble is, I find sex profoundly boring. I get vaguely "horny" maybe twice a year, and I don't like sex.
Now I'm starting to wonder if being sexually uninterested disqualifies me from being with my BF. Judging from your past advice, it does. Is this something I should disclose so that he can leave me? I enjoy the cuddling and kissing, talking and outings that are part of coupledom, and it pains me to think I'm doomed to be alone, forever, just because shoving genitals together sits at #48 on my life priority list.
Please let me know what I should do. He's talking about a future together, and I am on the verge of confessing but afraid to lose him as well.
Doesn't Really Yearn
Either you've misread my past advice to the sexually disinterested, DRY, or you've only read mischaracterizations of my past advice on angry asexual blogs. So once more with feeling: Being asexual or minimally sexual does not disqualify you or anyone else from having a relationship or enjoying all of the swell, non-genitalia-related things that come with coupledom. It does complicate your desire, however.
Because you can't — you shouldn't — mislead your boyfriend about who you are.
He has a right to know how you feel about sex before he marries you, DRY. At the moment, he assumes — and it's an entirely rational assumption — that you're attracted to him not just in the cuddling, kissing, talking, and outing departments, but sexually as well. That you're not all that interested in sex with him or anyone else is something he has a right to know before marriage and/or kids.
But even if your current BF leaves you, DRY, you're not necessarily "doomed to be alone." There are men out there who feel the same way about sex that you do. If your boyfriend dumps you, come out as very nearly asexual and go find yourself a very nearly asexual guy who wants to cuddle, kiss, talk, and out. And if you do ultimately wind up alone, DRY, no whining: There are lots of happily partnered asexuals out there and lots of unhappy sexuals who wound up alone despite their interest in sex.
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